I call I'm a sinner

Today, In this night I felt a spasm of sadness,

My brain squeezed with words,

Heart spoke for bitterness,

And two hands clenched to type the words

Here it goes…

Our tiny body carries emotions-

The pain, suffer, happiness and sorrow,

Which neither can be seen nor grasp it.

Our body is made up of blood, flesh and bones,

And also runs the same impulsive in all souls.

If these emotions can be seen like a rainbow,

One could identify a hue of emotions,

To see if one is in sad or joy mood.

But we observe them by their physical gesture,

And fails to feel what other really feels.  

Many say you’re bold;

It is certain that I too act boldly,

No one asked me to be bold in the beginning,

Both my parents are farmer and

They are illiterates to write to me ‘be bold’,

But I was make sure not to steal and lie

From the day I sense I’m human.

Half of my life is passed, and

Half unforeseen life has to crawl through.

In the day to till today-

I walked through rough road;

I felt a victim of betray and neglect,

I listened to a song of sorrows and

Wrote a few verses of, my own, in my diary.

As a medicine I drunk alcohol to quench

My pain, bitterness and suffer,

But it did not work.   

I met different people and

Learnt different life experiences.

Today you see me as who I’m not who I was,

It is all because of hardship I went through,

And the people who gave me lessons who I should be.

If others see a bold heart, I must confess even bold has pain

And it cries for others good.  

  

My tiny body too carries emotions,

Yet some feels I’m ‘bold’.

To act bold it seems heartless,

Show no love!

But boldness encompasses the pain.

I have not enjoy the sadness and happiness

That is not yours. I feel I’m cruel because I act bold.

But I will not stop to put into practice to be bold.

As I act bold-I call myself a sinner.

Still I here plead be bold too. 

Know or unknown I hurt many souls,

I might have beaten others by my harsh words,

Made cry and killed the alive soul.

If I say I did all for others good will,

It seems dramatic. But the heart speaks the truth.

Until one could comprehend my verses genuinely

-I call myself a sinner. And

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