this summer time

have a glance at this picture, see how beautifully it blooms

The winter desert has bidden adieu, welcoming the summer rain. In this summer time, a field covered in green grass, the flowering peach trees, adorning the winter wither scenery into the blooming one. Together with returning of the summer it brings a smile on the face of far-flung farmers who are completely depends on agriculture. But, today by this summer afternoon, has made my mood gloomy like the cloudy weather in the out. Not only me, may be someone from somewhere at the corner may be feeling gloomy. I do not know who but someone unknown or unseen as all the beings in this world have a seed of Buddha’s mind. I thought a reason for feeling sad deeply inside me may be because of the outer weather.

In time, one of my friends came to me. Looking at her eyes I knew she was feeling drowsy too. She asked me to go with her at Canteen for a tea. I agreed immediately as I too was badly in need of a cup of tea that could draw my attention from the sadness. More than half an hour we spared our time for tea and there we had an informative talk. Our talk was nothing especial than of a movement of life.

After having a cup of tea we were again diverted to our work. In repose, I leaned back in my armchair, giving a though of what my friend has just shared with me a moment ago. “Are you happy”, she asked. To this question, I simply answered “my mind fluctuates with the situations”, which means my answer clearly proves that I fail to be the custodian of my own mind although I should be.  There are all kinds of thoughts running through my mind like seasonal varies, and wondering why I’m failure in subduing those unwanted thoughts and why I’m unable to think meaningful thoughts. Time and again I reiterate the same questions and I could not squish as I fall to commit the same mistakes.

I looked out through the window which gives me a way to have a glimpse at outside. Seeing rushing vehicles and people who were strolling along the road, it flashback me of the time when I was, with perspiration, stroll around the capital, in search of a job. Amongst those walking people, there must be as many as students who are seeking for a job, weighing down by tension, thinking they may not get even shortlisted, despite, being recruited. How terrible state of mind that must be, having no host who would offer a cup of tea in depressing situation. This thought of mine has abate my current sadness. Whether, we are in sadness or happiness, I think it is the best remedies to recollect of other's suffer that you have witnessed and do away with your present dingy thoughts. 

The above mention words may not find base on rational. I just wrote this especially to keep myself engage in writing something that would abate the emotion boils inside me. None of the souls have put me into the realm where I would be sad and droop. Life I have learned through experience and the people, whom I have encountered with, have taught me in many ways, yet there is a lot more to be learned of life. 

A story to be shared

an inspiring quote from google

My son did not nag me for night feeding. He was in sound sleep. And the city dogs that used to bark throughout the night have made peaceful night for sleep. There was nothing disturbance that could provoke my sleep. Yet, my thought kept me  awake.

This silent night facilitated me of introspection of life. Every life has a history to be told, a diverse story. As we live alive we are encountering a people who are thawing with different crises. I mean to say I too have a story that I really wanted to share with you all my readers.  

Two days before, a lass came to me asking help to fill her form. In the time I was busy with some official work. Looking at her innocent face I could not ignore her from helping. 

“Madam, there is a vacancy and I am seeking for that job,  help me to fill this form”. 
I did not know what the form could be. I asked her, what form is it?
 "I have no idea what form it is", She said. 
I received the form and read it. It was RCSC employment Form. "What position are you applying for?" I asked. 
"I am applying for a sweeper". she said hesitantly. 
Noticing shyness on her face I did not enquire more. When I was about to finished filling the form she started narrating her life story that happened recently and the reason why she was made to seek a job for a sweeper.

Her story starts here; leaving all the relatives and village behind, I married to him. I gave him full trust. To be a faithful wife was only the words I had in my mind. He was a nice and loving husband. His parents did well to me. I was glad and thanked God for blessing me of a wonderful environment. I was fully depending on him as I being a daughter of farmer and having no education. I was just a housewife. 
A year later I gave a birth to his child and I become no more juvenile. Now I’m called a mother. The pattern of my life twisted when my child’s age turned a year old. I have seen others women suffering from betray but I never thought such life would befall on me. Perhaps this is called what fate is;

My husband started ignoring home. He comes home fully drunk. I was wondering what was happening to him. It was fruitless to tell him not to drink. One day he came home with a lady. Having no idea who she was, I offered her all the hospitality I could do. Being a faithful spouse, will anyone able to stand still if your wife or husband reveals the truth that you have no clue of? I was broken down when my husband narrated about a new lady of him. The news killed my trust and felt like I was a fish in the dry land. They were like a king and queen at home. Nothing I could share my painful feelings at that moment. Only I could do was weeping for my fate and vanishing from his life. If he was a humble and trusted husband he would have never thought of doing such bitter crime for someone who loves him dearly.

Now, I have no job in hand to run the daily meals. When my child will be grown up she will get spoiled if I get spoiled just now coz of my husband. To build my child’s life stable I must be stabled. To nurture my child I’m seeking a job thinking I would earn a little. With that little money I will have to buy rice and vegetables to keep away my child from hunger and to buy blanket to keep away from cooler. Luxuries I don’t have and I will never wish hereafter if I will be blessed with only a necessary needed things. My only reason for living is for my child. Her wither face, dripping with tear-drop, she ended the story. She was given a legally divorce.  

What will you do if you were in her situation? Deliberately her husband had deleted her name from his life. By brute force she had to go out of home. There was no home waiting for her. Moreover she has no job for surviving. Who will do favor at instant to her?    

 Quote from google

I was taken aback hearing such a bitter story. Nevertheless, this heart crying story which made me move to yesterday’s memories was not a new story as i have heard before. There are many such stories happening around having different problems depending on a situations. Perhaps, with me many of you may be wondering why such problem have to be arisen more. And we have no answer to this because we cannot predict the future and the same problem may befall on us. 
Listening to this melancholy story what I could do was only to wish "sun shines on her way and make her life evergreen.      

A hope....

Out In the cold we expect sun to be shown to make our body comfort by warmer rays. Out In the scorching sun what we expect Is nature air to be blown and feel cool ourselves. Expectation is one of those elements born in us when someone promises to do an altruistic thing. Like the same way what all the mothers have been expecting was one of the pledges made by our Honorable New Government (PDP); the pledges that suppose to be made was to extend maternity leave by adding three more months over the preceded maternity Leave. This talk became hot news in the city and it blooms an every women’s heart. Women’s expectations were high then.

In time I was in maternity leave. Three months maternity leave was left only a few days to complete and there was no talk of implementing the nine months maternity leave which actually was to be made. This dormant has dragged me in worry thinking that how I will be able to leave my three months old child at home for the first time. Like me, the same worry would have been prevailed in the entire mothers mind.  

 According to the Hospital, mothers are being counseled or instructed that mothers must feed the child only mother’s milk for six months. To make up the nurses advises, as a mother, to fulfill the mother’s responsibilities and to follow the Hospital’s Instructions.  Every day at sharp noon I leave office for home to be feed my son who is just a few months old

I catch Taxi which cost me Nultrum eighty to hundred that is just for one way – from office to home. It takes me a few minutes to reach home. According to Government timing schedule, feeding timing is at sharp 12 to 2pm. I divide the time; half an hour for my son and another half an hour for coming back to office. From home I walk down at Changjiji bridge to catch Taxi till town. From town I walk to office. People like us; to live in city, it is very difficult to afford daily expenses. Many a times many of us are in depress because of the word so called – insufficient.  

I could go day feeding for four months. since the distance and financial matters i stopped going feeding and i reach home when the dusk is falling. By the time I reach home my son would be crying for milk.
Nevertheless, keeping all the individual problem aside, as a citizen and a civil servant, our concern and promise is to serve our country with transparent and genuine. My only hope is if our Government could implement the aforementioned pledge for six months if not nine months. If implemented, all the infant of the parents would be grateful.

Life has many things that has to be scarifies and has many things that has to be done.